Naomi Watts: âMy soul was being destroyedâ | Film
âArmchair or sofa?â Naomi Watts wonders aloud, trying to decide where to put us both in her London hotel room. The 48-year-old actor has spent a lot of this year and last portraying a therapist for the 10-hour TV serial Gypsy, and did a good deal of sitting in armchairs for that. She takes the sofa. âThis works.â
The day Watts was born, her mother once recalled, the midwife took one look and declared the baby would grow up to be famous. âHow many newborns did she say that about?â Watts smiles. In her case, it took a while â" the actor did not get her break until she was 32 â" but the maternity-ward prediction came to pass and Watts has been established as a Hollywood reliable for years now. Long enough to have gone around twice on productions with leading directors such as David Lynch and Alejandro González Iñárritu. Long enough to have seen the skinny boy who played her kid in The Impossible grow up to become this summerâs muscle-ripped Spider-Man.
Sitting in front of Watts today, itâs hard to believe she isnât still 32. Her cheeks are youthfully pink-touched, her blond hair inventively pinned. She wears an ankle-length cream skirt that takes a bit of marshalling on the sofa. Otherwise, sheâs dressed with minimalist chic: bare arms, stitched black top, heels.
We talk about her new Netflix show, which is, perhaps surprisingly, her first substantial work for TV. In Gypsy she plays Jean Holloway, a New York therapist who practises cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT) and starts to feel so suffocated by her life that she fakes new identities in order to insert herself into strangersâ lives. âGypsyâs all about wanting the things you donât have,â says Watts, who was directed in the first two episodes by Sam Taylor-Johnson. Gearing up to play the therapist, Watts drew as far as she could on her own experiences of treatment: âIâve definitely done periods of time in a therapistâs office. Got some proper help at points of crisis.â To drill deeper into the cognitive behaviour aspect, she shelled out specially for sessions with a CBT therapist.
âFour hundred dollars an hour,â she says.
Did she expense that to Netflix?
Watts laughs quietly. âI should have, right? But then, what they say is, you donât get anything out of it for yourself if youâre not the one paying.â
She explains that there are lots of considerations that tend to lead to her accepting a job, but key among them is a basic, selfish question. What will it help me to understand about myself? âThere has to be a point of doing it.â
What was she better hoping to understand about herself with this one?
Watts raises an eyebrow. Her expression reads: you sure want to go there? âWell, OK,â she says. And perhaps itâs something about the clinic-configuration of the furniture, her on the sofa and me in the chair, but Watts wastes no more time before plunging headlong back into her childhood. âI moved around a lot when I was a kid. I mean, I went to nine different schools in England. Started off in Kent. Moved to Cambridge for a little while. We lived in Norfolk, we lived in Suffolk, in Wales â" that was where my grandparents were. So, a lot of moving, a lot of new schools, a lot of reinventing myself. âHow do I get into that group? How do I get accepted? Who should I be? Who do you want me to be?â Thatâs part of where the Gypsy world taps into my life, that constant reinvention.â
Her mum and dad, Myfanwy Roberts and Peter Watts, or âMivâ and âPuddyâ, were young when they became parents. Very cool. Miv modelled and Puddy was the sound engineer for Pink Floyd. (He narrowly missed his daughterâs birth in 1968 because the band were touring Scotland in a Ford Transit.) Among the few surviving photographs Watts has of this era, thereâs one in which she and her parents are on a beach in St Tropez with Pink Floyd, all wild hair and skimpy swimmies. She recalls being a kid who craved the opposite. âIâd had enough of cool. I didnât want cool. I wanted my parents to wear three-piece suits and tweed, not leather pants and four-inch platform boots.â
Her parents divorced in 1972, when Watts was four. âAnd then my dad died,â she says. âSuper-young.â He was 31. Miv Roberts has said that the cause of his death was a heroin overdose. Watts doesnât go into details, but talks instead about how the members of Pink Floyd responded to the tragedy. âWhen he died, my dad hadnât saved money, and I guess my mum didnât have any. So they, the band, very kindly... âTrust fundâ doesnât sound right at all. I think they gave my mum a few thousand dollars to help get things under way. A lump sum, to help. It was kind that they did that.â
The moving-around started in earnest for Watts and her family after that. âMum really had to find her feet, try to find a career.â Every time Watts was tipped into a new playground, she says, sheâd stand on the fringes and try to work out what role â" what accent â" would get her admitted to the group. All adequate training for the future, but probably difficult to appreciate that way at the time. âI just remember always wanting to be something else. Quite sad, isnât it?â
When Watts was 14, a couple of years into school in Suffolk and beginning to âfind her grooveâ, it was decided the family would emigrate to Australia. âI was gutted.â Her mum sweetened the pill by promising to pay for acting lessons once they got there, and that was enough to get Watts on the plane. She found their new home in the North Shore area of Sydney âa culture shock. I remember driving past my school, the first week we were there, and seeing how high the hems were. The kids had drawn on their uniforms and they had weird haircuts. Iâd come from a school where it was socks to the knees. Bottle-green checked knickers. This was a whole new world.â
But she settled, made friends, and met a teenage Nicole Kidman, who was part of a wider gang that used to go out drinking in Sydney pubs. The two aspiring actors became closer friends, later, when they were cast together in the Australian comedy Flirting (1991). Watts remembers them gossiping for hours on overturned milk crates, waiting on scene changes. She had done some modelling by then, and filmed a few episodes of daytime soap Home & Away, but in the mid-1990s Watts was cast in the mid-budget Hollywood movie Tank Girl and relocated to the US.
It wasnât quite the new beginning sheâd hoped for. âUnhireable,â is how she characterises herself in those days. Hollywood casting directors would telephone and, with sing-song good cheer, tell her sheâd fluffed an audition because she wasnât sexy enough, funny enough, something enough. In 1998 â" a nadir â" Watts provided an âadditional voiceâ for the childrenâs movie Babe: Pig In The City. In 2000, she flew on her own money from New York to LA to audition for a director who seemed strangely subdued during her reading. When Watts checked, she saw that he had his eyes shut.
âLooking back, I know why people werenât hiring me. I went into auditions thinking, âWhat version of me do they want? How should I shape myself in order to win them over?ââ Watts was in the playground, again, only this time the chameleon act wasnât working.
Not long after the audition for the sleepy director, she was in New York, about to go the theatre with her visiting mother, when she got a call. David Lynch was casting a new thriller, set in Los Angeles, and he wanted to meet Watts for the lead. Her immediate response to this apparently heaven-sent phone call was: nah. âThe last time Iâd flown to LA for an audition, the guy had his eyes closed. Iâd decided I was never going to do it again, never rearrange my plans or spend a single dime.â The casting director then explained that Lynch had picked out Wattsâ headshot from a huge pile, and that there werenât many others in contention. âMy odds were better than usual.â
Lynch cast Watts as his main character in Mulholland Drive, a young actor called Betty Elms who is sent out to negotiate a creepy, Lynchian version of Hollywood. When the film played at Cannes in spring 2001, it was slavered over by critics; on release that autumn, it hit big. Watts ran away with most of the praise, in particular for a central scene that had Betty audition, appropriately enough, for a group of slimy casting directors.
âThings came to me very quickly from that point,â she recalls. Iñárritu put her in his shattering film 21 Grams (2003) and Peter Jackson, just free of Middle Earth, cast her opposite the CGI monkey in King Kong (2005). Her calling card as an actor became a subtle, under-surface force, as evident in Iñárrituâs realist drama as in Jacksonâs chaotic blockbuster. âI turned down giant pay cheques, giant opportunities â" my agents were flummoxed. But I knew what I liked by then. I had a strong understanding of my taste.â
Watts has tried to stick as close as possible to this acid-test approach towards offers ever since. âI donât think Iâm any good if I donât feel an honest connection with the material.â
So when she has taken a pay cheque job, it plays out on screen?
âYeah. And Iâm not going to call those films out. But, yes, I definitely can. I havenât done it that much. But thereâs definitely a⦠disconnect.â
She recently worked with David Lynch again, guest-starring in the reprise of his TV drama Twin Peaks. She praises Lynch almost limitlessly, especially for the initial mining of her talent. âI wasnât getting parts. I was giving myself away. My soul was being destroyed. I was never able to walk in a room and own it by being me. David changed that. It was having someone actually make eye contact, ask questions he was truly interested in, take the time to unveil some layers.â
He was a therapist of sorts.?
âExactly!â
Watts asked Lynch, later, when they became friends, âWhy did you pick me? Why my headshot?â She got a kick out of the directorâs answer, and she straightens on the sofa to give a full-bodied impression of what Lynch told her. She squints as if through cigarette smoke, and yaps: âI donât know, Naomi! It was just the look in yer eye!â
Using my phone, we take a closer look at Wattsâ headshot from that period, to try to work out what caught Lynchâs attention. She shows me something that she says not even the director was aware of. She zooms in on her eye. âCan you see? My brother took the photo â" and you can see him reflected. Thereâs a real person there. Looking at another real person.â
In these years of televisionâs golden age, when so many major actors helm a multi-episode enterprise, you wonder why Watts has waited so long to take on her own show. You wonder whether sheâs waited too long. By general agreement, there has been some slippage in the quality of quality TV. When Gypsy premiered last month, it was attacked by some critics as an example of âNetflix bloatâ: an indulgence that has crept in across the industry, a sense of loosening standards.
Quality telly still gets made, of course. Nicole Kidman recently produced and starred in the brilliant, knotty HBO drama Big Little Lies. âWe talked about doing that together,â Watts says. âI might have been in it.â As it was, Kidmanâs drama went ahead without her â" Reese Witherspoon and Shailene Woodley played the other leads â" and Watts ate up Big Little Lies from her sofa like the rest of us. âSo good.â
Wattsâ partner until recently, the actor and writer Liev Schreiber, has also enjoyed success in a rich TV drama, the Emmy-nominated Ray Donovan. When Gypsy was first offered to Watts, about a year ago, she decided to go for it, in part because âIâd seen up close Liev doing Ray Donovan. I thought it made a lot of sense. Lots to do with the logistics.â Gypsy was shot in New York, Watts explains, where she lived with Schreiber and their two boys, nine-year-old Sasha and eight-year-old Kai. Taking on Gypsy would allow everyone to stay in âone placeâ.
Given Wattsâ upbringing, it doesnât take much to figure out why staying in one place might appeal. âI have kids in school. I canât go on the road at the drop of a hat now. Some actors do homeschool their kids, but it was important to Liev and I for them to have regular relationships with friends.â Last September, Watts and Schreiber announced their separation after 11 years. She has since said the pair remain on good terms and are co-parenting well. Judged solely by Wattsâ likable Instagram account, you wouldnât necessarily know theyâd ever split: birthday wishes are exchanged, Fatherâs Day is celebrated; Watts recently posted a shot of a day out ice-skating with Schreiber and the boys.
Has she tried to be a more conventional parent than her own were?
âOf course. Definitely. Routine is a big part of it. Iâm very big on routine. Obviously, Liev and I are actors â" there is some moving around â" but weâve really tried to keep the boys in the same school. Give them structure. Boundaries.â She can guess at the psychology underlying this. âEverythingâs a reaction.â
And yet, I say, sheâs chosen a career in entertainment. A job thatâs essentially itinerant.
Itâs the first time Wattsâ colour rises a touch. The pink gets a little pinker. âWell, I am still me. I canât totally reinvent myself. Thatâs how I grew up. Iâm drawn to it. Iâm intrigued by it. Iâm not repulsed by it. But, yâknow, I want to find my own version of it.â
Her Instagram account is one of the small ways she has tried to find such a version. âPeople are going to try and interpret stories of mine in their own way, whenever they want to. Through the work I do, through what they read, through this story, through how Iâve represented myself in some speech I havenât done a great job of, or through a paparazzo Iâve lost my temper with and given the finger to. Thereâs constant scrutiny and judgment. And [the Instagram account] is a little way of doing it in safety, in my own time, in my own controlled way.â
A proper product of Britain and Australia (whose nationals tend to be desperately uneasy about sincerity), Watts cannot maintain this earnest speech for long without undercutting it. She tilts her head and adds: âThough I do wish I was funnier on Instagram. And every time I post something, I have a mini panic attack.â Itâs the same whenever a new film goes out into the world, she says. âYou put your blood, sweat and tears into something, and when it doesnât have the resonance or the reception that you hoped forâ¦â
In recent years, Watts has experienced the best, and then the worst, and then the best of reactions. The Impossible, a 2012 blockbuster about the Indian Ocean tsunami, earned her an Oscar nomination for best supporting actress. Diana, a 2013 biopic about the late Princess of Wales, was agreed to be one of the worst films of that year. (The wig-and-costume panto aspect of Diana, the daytime-drama vibe, was too much even for Watts to overcome.) Then she was in the film of 2014, Iñárrituâs brilliant comedy Birdman, playing a theatre actress opposite Edward Norton. Can she ever predict whatâs coming?
âYou know when itâs going to be bad. For sure. Usually I can tell pretty quickly if itâs going to be bad.â
How?
âJust⦠I feel it. I feel it in my gut. And I feel, like⦠Yâknow, often the director⦠If theyâre not living up to the great spiel that they gave you in the beginning. And if theyâre not listeningâ¦â
You might know a filmâs going to bomb as early as the shoot?
âMight do. Then there are other times when youâre certain that a filmâs got all the elements. And that film can actually be really good. But it can be about audiences not being open to receive an idea at that point in time.â
She thinks this was the situation with her last film, The Book Of Henry, an unusual drama about a dying boy and his motherâs involvement in a complicated murder plot. It was another one that the critics rather energetically crushed. Watts says that, after successful test screenings, its hostile reception on release in June was âkind of a shock. I donât read reviews, but I heard about them. And itâs painful. Itâs painful.â
She laughs gruffly and says, âSo Iâve had a couple of bad runs lately! The Book Of Henry. And thereâs been some critical attacks on this.â She is referring to Gypsy, which in the days before our meeting has been dealt some damning reviews. Critics seem to agree that Watts herself makes for a magnetic central presence, but the plotting and pacing around her is too ponderous, too lax. âIt definitely depletes you,â Watts says. âMakes you feel, âWhatâs wrong? Is my picker off? Is it me? Am I doing too many things?â You have all that. Self-doubt comes in. But I have a split personality on this, because although I sometimes feel defeated and want to crawl in a hole, there are times when I think, âNo. You know what? Letâs stick together, push on, and address the fact that where thereâs smoke, thereâs fire. Letâs make this better. Letâs make it work.ââ
In industry terms, Iâd call it gutsy (not to mention rare) for an actor to address without prompting the bad reviews of a project theyâre meant to be promoting. Coolly accountable, too, given that she is one of Gypsyâs executive producers, for Watts to interpret those critical attacks not as dismissible snark, but as signs of a real problem in need of attention. Not everyone wants to take on criticism of a work theyâve been deeply bound up in. âWell, thatâs not me,â she says.
David Lynch once put Wattsâ bracing, no-bullshit manner down to her years of âbeating the bushesâ for work. Fame came late, after her character and her sensibility had taken shape. âA star,â Lynch said, âbut she doesnât get that ego-trip thing.â I wonder if it isnât something to do with Wattsâ unusual background as well. The early bereavement, those nine different schools, the continents swapped out underneath her.
I start to say something to this effect, but Watts interrupts. A disordered, random life? She gives a you-donât-know-the-half-of-it chuckle and takes out her phone.
She thumbs through her photos, to show me a black-and-white picture of a handsome young man, long-haired and shirtless, sitting with friends. Some of those around him are just about recognisable as members of Pink Floyd, but only the young man in middle can see theyâre being photographed and he grins at the camera. âI just stumbled on this,â Watts says.
A Pink Floyd fan approached her a week or so ago, she says, carrying the picture in an envelope. âYouâve got to understand, Iâve got maybe three photos of my dad, and maybe two memories. And all of the photos of him are either out of focus or heâs a tiny speck in the background.â When she opened the envelope and saw Peter Watts beaming, she burst into tears. At the age of 48, it was the first time Watts had seen, with such clarity, her dad smile.
We squint at the image for a good while, pinch-zooming, admiring her dadâs good looks, his incredible hair, that wicked glee on his face. It makes a strange end to a journalistic encounter, and when Watts stands up, she gathers me in a clumsy hug. âGod,â she says, âI feel like Iâve had therapy.â The actor must be thinking of those $400-a-hour sessions she paid for as part of her research, because she adds, âAnd for free! Um, I guess Iâll owe you?â
⢠Gypsy is available on Netflix.
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